Gunman says his parents sometimes let them sleep in their bed, sometimes told him monsters were not real
Does frozen feeling resemble being afraid of dark or of monsters? Gunman says no.
Dr Reid asks if gunman ever had thoughts as an adult of monsters from childhood? "I would have like violent images"
"Things like saws going against the other people"
Dr Reid asks for more about the images. "They just pop up randomly"
Dr Reid asks when they occurred? "Since, like, high school-on"
In the fantasy, gunman says the saw cuts off a limb. "once it happens, then there's no more. it is done"
Gunman tells Reid saw is dangerous to the other person.
dr "So the saw is your friend/ally?"
gunman "No, I wouldn't put it like that"
What happens next? "I'm either still frozen or I've come up with a response or something"
Dr asks: Why did you so quickly correct when I said the saw was your ally?
Gunman "The saw is doing it on its own"
Dr asks if the saw is any part of him? "No, I don't know"
Gunman said he also imagines setting off atomic bombs
Gunman asked to speculate why he thinks of those things? "Because I'm frustrated I guess"
Dr Reid brings up girlfriend, how gunman was relatively old at time of first relationship. Gunman confirms that was his first sexual experience
"It was a successful relationship" gunman says.
How frequent was the sex? 3-4 times per week gunman answers
Dr Reid asks to read quotes about how people see the gunman
1st: "trying to keep it together"
Gunman says he doesn't know what that is
Dr Reid focuses gunman on idea of keeping his mind together. Gunman said he felt like "mind was falling apart"
When did that being to fall apart? "After Christmas when I came back to graduate school"
Gunman says he was sick from Mono, fatigued at that time
Gunman says he was fatigued for months but "I passed all my courses and everything"
Reid redirects back to keeping mind from falling apart: "I guess I was also really depressed"